Clueless Example

It all started a few months ago(Thanksgiving, to be exact). I brought home a "twilight" book. I had taken it to this neighborhood party and had asked my mom if I could read it. She was kind of busy when I asked her, but I didn't notice because I really wanted to start reading the book. It was only a matter of weeks before the movie came out on the big screen. Anywho, she said yes... at first. I finished reading the prologue, then read a few sentences of the first chapter just before "Caitlin! What are you doing!?!? I said I never wanted any of you reading those books!" The borrowed book was confiscated. In my rage, which I kept bottled up inside, I moped. This wasn't cool. Everyone I knew, everyone around me, were reading these books. I thought I would go insane! Every time someone asked me who was better, Edward or Jacob, I had to say "I'm not allowed to be involved with Twilight stuff" The rage kept building up inside of me.
Finally, the week of the movie coming out and everyone was anticipating the moment that the tickets would come on sale. I don't remember what I was doing, the day I finally cracked, but I do remember the situation.
I was hanging out with one of my friends, who was with a few of her friends, and we were about to head somewhere (I think it was to Youth Group...). They were all going to go get tickets from the ITT almost as soon as school was over. I volunteered to stay behind at school, but I was somehow talked into going and getting tickets with everyone.
We all walked over, and when we arrived in the ITT office, it kept packing in with tons of girls waiting for their Twilight Tickets. I sat in the middle of the room (which wasn't very big) and tried to keep my emotions bottled up while everyone was around me, in the chaos. People kept asking me, "Aren't you going to get a ticket too?" I had to respond with what was programmed in me, "I'm not allowed"
As soon as everyone was done, I remember taking some time to myself. Breathing in. Breathing out. I didn't know how to handle this.
Eventually, the Twilight fad had died down... a little bit. It still gets annoying, but I don't have to constantly say that "I'm not allowed" anymore.
Today, I was babysitting for the PWOC meeting in Yokosuka, and a lady came up to me. I don't really remember who is was, but she said she remembered seeing me in the ITT that day and she admired the way I could say 'no' and didn't bash my mom when I did so.
It was really weird, because I fought with my mom the through the whole process. I really disliked the fact that I could not participate in any of the twilight stuff. I asked God to somehow have my mom change her mind and let me go see the movie, but it never happened.
I never knew that others were watching me. I never knew that I was being an example, to children and adults.
So, I just want to say thanks. Thanks to God and thanks to my mom. I also wanted to say sorry to them both, as well. I suppose I was blinded by my own wants because all I was seeing was what was going on around me instead of the big picture.
Yeah, that was cool.

-Caitlin-